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07 June 2009 @ 08:50 pm
um... lets see... update..
I am afriad this will be mostly negative... so here goes..

Was dating the guy I always thought of as "the one". It ended badly when he flipped out suddenly, and started an arguement with me in which he pretty much projected his anger at his ex-wife at me and ran away from the relationship. He acted badly enough that I no longer believe him to even be a good person and friendship is not salvagable.
Brendan has since then taken me out a few times and we have tried to begin working things out. He was never really happy about the break-up and pretty much refused to believe it. I am not sure how I feel about this. I am not excited about it, but it isn't aweful either. I have always said Brendan is a good guy.. and there isn't anything particularly wrong with him... I am just not sure if he is THE GUY for me. He is a great guy, and a wonderful boyfriend... so not to put him down in any way... I just don't know if I feel like he is someone I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I guess I owe him the chance to try.. he has never done anything too horrible to me.

I haven't been out much. Love drama has been sucking most of my time and energy... and left me feeling less than social. I think I would like to go to Mackinaw soon. I feel like I need to be by water.

Stacy's sister is getting married and apparently pissing everyone off in the process. At least I am not the only one with problems.

The days have been long, boring, and disappointing. I feel like I am getting to old for all this crap.
Dean-O Ventrue: megods_ventrue on June 8th, 2009 11:35 am (UTC)
I'm 100% sure that you'll find the right guy in time. Any guy would be very lucky to have you as a partner :)
Jennmzsexkitten on June 8th, 2009 07:59 pm (UTC)
Yeah, well, they don't think so... and that is a problem.
Dean-O Ventruegods_ventrue on June 8th, 2009 08:28 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry, I wish there was something I could say to reassure you. Things will get better in time.

There are guys who like you. I know that when I lived back home that there were at least 4 guys who were crazy about you.

They were dorks though. At any rate, I really hope things get better for you.
THE GOD OF ALL THINGS HUGGYanthonyvanpyre on June 23rd, 2009 12:20 am (UTC)
tabitha_toxin on July 2nd, 2009 06:12 pm (UTC)
You and I have something in common...

It's like the Motley Crue song says...Merry go round and round.

I want to spend some time with you in the near future. You were far too important too me as a companion for me to let you drift as far away as you did, ya know?
tabitha_toxin on July 6th, 2009 08:11 am (UTC)
I'm glad we're still friends. I remember telling you a long time ago that we'd always be friends even if we never saw each other. I had no idea at the time how true that would turn out to be. I might not see you for another ten years (hopefully that's not the case) but you will still be a friend...a dear friend. I hope that means something to you...it does to me.
Jennmzsexkitten on July 26th, 2009 11:59 pm (UTC)